This is another painting from the Exiles series of the mid 90’s, titled Martyr.
As I sit here right now, I am at a loss for words to describe this piece. While there is overt religious symbolism, for me it is not about that. It is about self-sacrifice, giving everything for the benefit of others.
But there is also an element that has to do with fear.
When I look at the torso of this character I see it almost as though he has had his skin removed, baring the muscles beneath. For me, this translates as one being afraid of the consequences of exposing what lies inside. In my mind, this martyr has been punished for showing who he truly is.
Maybe I’m describing paranoia. Maybe it’s a form of agoraphobia or just introversion.
I don’t really know. It’s funny that this piece that has hung above my desk for many years still perplexes me and eludes definition. I’m sure that one would expect to know exactly what was meant when I painted this but quite honestly, when I started this piece I had no idea where it was going. Even when the figure neared completion I was still scrambling for the true meaning. The elements that seem to from a crucifix were not present and weren’t even contemplated at first.
So the piece remains an enigma. Personally, I like that. It gives me a sense that the piece is beyond the obvious which is what I hope for all my work.
Hey, maybe that will be the title of one of this year’s shows:
Beyond the Obvious…
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