In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in an clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth.
-Mahatma Gandhi
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I write a lot about the search for something and in reality I have no idea what that thing is. Gandhi says that it is Truth that we seek. His Truth may be the same as the wisdom that others claim to be seeking. Others say that life is a search for self or love or to shatter loneliness.
As for me, I just don’t know. I have thought it was many things over the years– truth, self, wisdom and a place to fit in. But none of those ever truly fit for me. I am not sure I am equipped with the wisdom to handle the truth and, as far as fitting in, I gave up on that some time back. And I have the self too elusive a thing to seek for too long. It sometime feels like looking for a Bigfoot– you think you may have found it but it always ends up not being what you hoped.
So I am left filled with even more uncertainty. And I think this uncertainty is a good thing because it makes me believe that the real quest is for a reason, a purpose for our existence. And maybe that makes the quest the real purpose– to be aware of our world, our lives. To hold up each day, to examine each moment. Maybe in each moment there is that truth, that wisdom. that sense of self and inclusion, if only we look with some uncertainty, not knowing why we do so.
But as I say, I don’t know.
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The painting at the top is Quester’s Path and is 8″ by 14″ on paper. It is part of the show, Traveler, at the Principle Gallery.
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