We would rather be ruined than changed
We would rather die in our dread
Than climb the cross of the moment
And let our illusions die.
–W.H. Auden
Epilogue, The Age of Anxiety
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These words were written by poet W.H. Auden in the aftermath of World War II in his Pulitzer Prize winning poem The Age of Anxiety, a work that later was translated into music in the form of a symphony by Leonard Bernstein and ballet by Jerome Robbins. I didn’t know much about this work when I stumbled across this short passage and I don’t suppose that its acclaim or history have much to do with the the thought it provokes.
Reading these four lines immediately brought to mind the transitional phase we’re moving through. It is a time fraught with fast moving change and many of the things we held onto as absolutes seem fragile and illusory now. It probably felt much like this to many of those who lived through the war years of the 30’s and 40’s, as though you were attached, with no control at all, to the back of an angry beast who is rampaging. All you have to hold onto is your fear.
It seems like many of the groups vying to gain power over the direction of this rampaging beast of a nation lend creedence to the words above. They fear and despise the idea of change, even inevitable change, and would rather see the whole shooting match go up in smoke rather than alter their illusions of what we once were or what we could be in the future.
I know this sound somewhat cryptic and I don’t want to blurt out the obvious here right now. Just a thought that rose from the four simple lines above.
How true those words ring now! I love the image beside them. Can you tell us about it?
Thanks, Moira. I guess I should have mentioned the accompanying piece. It’s an older piece from about 1997 on paper that I call “I Was Lost,” perhaps derived from the line in the song “Amazing Grace.” I really liked the sense of barrier that the trees provide in this painting while allowing the light of the negative space to create a sense of destination. I see it as sort of being in a labyrinth where you can’t quite see how close or far the end is from where you are at any time. Only glimpses.
We never quite as far from where we want to be as we imagine.